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The start of the pandemic was tough forHalsey.
“I completely spiraled,” the 26-year-oldtold the outlet. “I went from waking up and someone text[ing] me a schedule of everything I’m doing that day, every single day, to being home and being like, ‘Am I gonna rewatchEuphoriafor the fifth time?'”
Halsey explained that she’s been happy to reconnect with friends and family, but that she’s ready to get back on the road.
“This industry is not something that is promised to me,” she said. “I don’t know when the next time that I’ll step on the stage is, to be completely honest with you. I hope it’s soon. I have a tour that’s scheduled and I wake up every day hoping it doesn’t get canceled. But I know it probably will.” (A week after the interview, shehad to cancel her tour.)
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“It breaks my heart not knowing when I’ll get to do the thing that I love again,” she added. “It makes me wonder, am I losing really important years? But also, if that is true and I ended up only getting to have a couple, I would take having a couple over having none any day.”
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The singer, who did the interview beforerevealing her pregnancy, also spoke about the judgment she thought she’d face about wanting to start a family.
“Approaching that 30 benchmark, it’s like, ‘Okay, what do I want to accomplish in my career? And [don’t I] want to start a family?'” Halsey said. “People are going to be like, ‘She cares so much about her career, she’s going to die alone.’ Or if you decide to get married or start a family, people are like, ‘She really could have been something if she would have just focused on her career.'”
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The singer — who recently launched her own makeup line,About-Face— also opened up about beauty standards and when she feels the most confident.
“I’m exhausted with this industry of Instagram filters,” she said. “It’s gotta be damaging to your brain to constantly be looking at yourself through an altered lens and being disappointed with what your face actually looks like. I know what that feels like because when I first started getting publicity of some kind, I would go out and [paparazzi would] take pictures of me. I can’t control the angle. I can’t control the lighting. I can’t control if it’s my good side or my bad side. The pictures would come out and I would just have to look at them and go, ‘Okay. That’s what I look like.’ I don’t get to change it. I have to make peace with my face.”
source: people.com
